Sunday, January 30, 2011
To go from protected and taken care of to completely indepentdant. I miss the butterflies, the fear, and the satisifaction of the discipline that would happen if I crossed the line. I miss him. I miss us. I know it's better for both of us to be apart, but knowing and feeling are two completely different things. I know that I will find someone else, I know that it will never replace what we had together. He will always be my best friend and I am so glad that we talk almost every day, I don't know what I would do without him. I am trying to be pateint and allow myself to have this time to adjust, I'm struggling though. Sadness creeps in and I feel desperate. Like nothing will ever be right again. I know it's a temporary feeling, but it's very overwhelming. Thank you for reading. As always I appreciate all thoguhts and comments.