Sunday, January 30, 2011

Lonely

To go from protected and taken care of to completely indepentdant. I miss the butterflies, the fear, and the satisifaction of the discipline that would happen if I crossed the line. I miss him. I miss us. I know it's better for both of us to be apart, but knowing and feeling are two completely different things. I know that I will find someone else, I know that it will never replace what we had together. He will always be my best friend and I am so glad that we talk almost every day, I don't know what I would do without him. I am trying to be pateint and allow myself to have this time to adjust, I'm struggling though. Sadness creeps in and I feel desperate. Like nothing will ever be right again. I know it's a temporary feeling, but it's very overwhelming. Thank you for reading. As always I appreciate all thoguhts and comments.

3 comments:

  1. I'm very sorry you're going through this. I'm in a similar place myself. We're strong, we'll get through it!

    xoxox
    Libby

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  2. Elaina, just continue to be patient. The RIGHT person for you will come around. Get out there and mingle, make yourself and your interests known. Fortunately you are young with a lot more people to meet. Remember, don't sell yourself short and settle for someone with whose values you don't share!! As far as I'm concerned, you are a prized possession that someone worthy of you should highly esteem!!
    I know that loneliness is NOT a pleasant feeling, but that is better than making a serious mistake!!

    Daddy Bob, giving "advice" for the needy whenever I can!!! lol

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  3. Daddy Bob... thank you again for your words of encouragement, they're very nice to read :)

    Libby... Im sorry you're in a similar place, but at least we aren't alone, and you're right, we are strong and we will get through this

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